Getting artsy with hopefully my last bump picture since yesterday was my due date! Was out having a small mommy-daughter day with Ella while daddy worked today, and the looks on people’s faces when they asked my due date and I say yesterday are priceless. Anytime now, Lilia, please come join us.
Wow, you’re big. But I told you. She’s going to be one week overdue.
No, I don’t think you do. [pained voice, shaking head, looking up at her] If you didn’t want a kid, you wouldn’t have adopted Zola, and if Derek hadn’t wanted the twins, you still could have had them, Meredith. [voice breaks] I can’t carry the baby, and even if I could, I couldn’t walk away from her. I can’t ask her to have this baby if she doesn’t want it, because then she won’t be happy, she won’t be Amelia. She’ll be miserable, living a life she’s pretending to want, hating herself for looking at her kid and not wanting it, and I will never ask her to do that for me. But that doesn’t change the fact that I have to put aside my dream, and my beliefs. [shaking head, angrily pushing a tear away] I’d rather have her and no baby than a baby without her. But giving up the baby, especially when it’s there, inside of her…knowing I need her, doesn’t make doing that any easier.
I didn’t want kids to begin with. [snaps, folding arms over the chart] Derek did, and I didn’t. And then things changed, and I changed too, and eventually I changed my mind. But to begin with, I was exactly like Amelia. [pauses, staring still] Had I been pregnant, I’d of reacted exactly the way she did. [gulps, nods as she listens to him, and sighs] Just give her a little bit more time, James. She needs to process the news, and it will probably be hell and back, but she’ll pull through. Just give her the time to process, give her some time. All she needs, it’s time.
Cristina listened to her friend and nodded. “That’s very true. I hope Owen’s mum will like me and isn’t crazy like Burke’s mother.” She pulled a face just thinking about his “mama” as he called her. “Oh are you? I’m sure he’ll love that. And that way the frat house is staying in the family. I think I would be sad if you sold it to someone we don’t know. I’m staying at Owen’s but I just don’t know if we should be living together yet. I mean I really like being there. Waking up to him and going to bed with him is a good feeling.” She smiled a little bit thinking about him. She didn’t usually express her feelings that easily but it was Mer and she told her everything. “Don’t you dare tell my interns that I’m all mushy about my boyfriend.” She laughed a bit then finished up her pizza. “You want me to help you getting the girls in their cribs?” She looked over at the twins in their little swings. “Or feed them or whatever you do at this time.”
With a shrug, Meredith sighed as she gulped her bite before putting her utensils down. “I don’t really want to sell it, Derek’s kind of pressuring me into it… but then he’s right. I mean, we have this house now, and my family’s here. We’re building our lives here. I’m just… holding onto the past, kind of.” She shrugged, and sighing, she folded her arms up and joined her hands before resting her head on top of them. “Zo’s first height marks were on the door frame, among mine.. you know, it’s just a lot of memories. But then if Alex gets it, it’s not like I’m just selling it out to somebody. He lived there back when I did, during intern and residents years, it’s kind of already his somehow.” she shrugged, glancing at Zola who held out her plate and said, “Mowe…” A slight grin appeared on Meredith’s face, and she asked, “You want some more?” and as the little girl nodded, she nodded back and got up, reached out for her plate and walked up to the box to cut a small slice, and then cut it in pieces before taking it to Zola. “Here,” she said, and then walked back to her seat and sat back down. And shaking her head as Cristina dared her to tell her interns how mushy she was being about Owen, she grinned and said, “I would never,” and kept on her small grin. She glanced over at the twins in their bouncers and shook her head. “They should be up anytime soon for their last feed, then I’ll be putting them down to bed. But when we get to it, you can help us.” She turned to Zola and added, “Zo gets to rock them with me, but I’m sure your god daughter would love to have you rock her to sleep,” she said, glancing up to Cristina, referring to Abigail.
"That’s beautiful," Meredith commented with a nod as she glanced at Zola’s drawing before leaning back in her seat and holding out a spoon for Abigail, taking the puree up to her mouth. "Yes, yes, I’m all yours soon, Liv…" she said, reaching for the bowl of puree and taking all that’s left in her spoon before holding it up to Abby’s mouth, putting it in as she opened her mouth. "Good girl, all done," she smiled, then got up and put the bowl in the sink, reached out for a towel and came back to pass it over the little girl’s mouth. Once the little girl was all cleaned up, she picked her up and walked over to the playpen, and put her in, then picked Olivia up. "Come on… Let’s get your stomach filled." Kissing the little girl’s cheek, she carried her over to the table. "When awe we eatiiiin, momma?" Zola whined, sighing. "Soon, Zozo," Meredith replied, sitting Olivia in the carseat and buckling her up, then pushed in the tray before reaching out for the bowl of puree she had already prepared. "I’m hungwy…" Zola added, and Meredith nodded. "I know, just a few more minutes, okay? Why don’t you draw Daddy a little something? I’m sure he would love a new drawing of yours to decorate his office." Zola seemed content with that answer, which almost seemed as if it made her forget that she was hungry, and she reached out for a pencil and started drawing a line. Meredith turned to Olivia who was showing her unhappiness by hitting her feet up and down in her seat. "Hey, hey, hey, no," she frowned, gazing at the little girl as she took a spoonful and approached it to her. "Come on, eat up," she added, and the little girl stopped moving so much and opened her mouth, finally looking peaceful as she gladly welcomed the puree in her mouth.
Cristina pulled a face “Remind me never to get pregnant.” She took another bite of her pizza and laughed as Zola said baby. “Zola wants another brother or sister, you need to pop out another one.” She joked with her. Cristina rolled her eyes at the mention of the whole no eyebrows situation. “Oh my god that woman hated me and the stupid thing was I let her do it. I just stood there and let her take my eyebrows. Who was I back then?” Cristina shook her head. That was a whole other situation back then. She really lost herself in that mess but eventually she got back to who she was again. “So what’s going on with everyone else? I feel like I need to catch up. I’ve been gone too long even though it really wasn’t THAT long.” She felt like she had missed things and just wanted to know what was going on with everyone.
Censuring herself from saying a shut up at Cristina, she shoot her friend a glance and shook her head. “That is not happening,” she said, then glanced back at her pizza to cut herself a bite. When Cristina mentioned how she listened to all of Burke’s mother wishes even though they were against her own, Meredith sighed and shrugged. “You wanted her to like you, that’s not abnormal. By getting married, you’re kind of getting married to his family. I mean, I got married to four sisters as well. The fact that they live across the country kind of makes it different, except for Amelia but it’s not like she’s the typical sister-in-law as you’d call it. If Kathleen, Lizzie, and mostly Nancy lived here,” she stopped, kind of shocked at her own words, holding her breath for a second before adding, “I’d go crazy,” and then put the bite of pizza in her mouth. She frowned to her friend’s question, wondering where to begin, and what had happened since she was gone. She’d kind of lost track of time somehow. “Um… I don’t know, well Allison’s pregnant, as you know.. Other than that.. Oh, I’m selling the frat house to Alex,” and she put another bite of pizza in her mouth.